Tracing Tracks

Lockdown Diaries: Memories and more. Using songs to tell a story. Songs that once triggered strong emotions.

All matured, doing all things gown-up. How does your typical day during quarantine starts? Mine does with a work-out, meditation (a lot of it throughout the day), news, work, little breaks in-between followed by some more news. On what? Covid everywhere of course. Aight, give me a break! Its Saturday! And who says we’ve got time now? Holy $#!^ 24 hours isn’t enough to reminisce & day-dream 🤷🏻‍♀️ Dayum! 😉

Get ready! Coz I am about to take you all on a ride. All millennial (Gen Y), I am hoping you will enjoy the nudge. So, what are we waiting for? Let’s trace tracks shall we? Song tracks. Let’s unwind, rewind, reminisce good old memories for good. BTW did you know, certain sounds trigger strong emotions within us? Ok Enough talk. Lets proceed.

Its winter and the year is 2001. Back to school. IMAGINE THAT! Oh dear lord just look at you (then). Full of vigor & life abundant (not that you are any less now). A kiddo, but you think otherwise. In the name of cosmetics, trying out a watercolor lip gloss for the 1st time. Your favorite past time besides day dreaming is to cut magazines and create collage of favorite celebs. Also, of all your prized possessions which obviously you didn’t worked a penny for 🙃 is—A CD Walkman aka diskman. 🙆‍♀️ Of course, given the year. And damn your haunt for that jlo hat from Jenny from the block 🙃

Jennifer Lopez – All I Have (Video) ft. LL Cool J
Jennifer Lopez ft. Fabolous – Get Right

16 now, with it brought a lot of changes, but I couldn’t tell. Couldn’t help notice, others noticing. Most boys back in school had been acting weird lately no doubt. What was only visible to others, I was trying to figure out all by myself. Have I shed my old skin?

Dance club phase: Being in a rebellious age-group, all I wanted was to do everything I was asked not to. Felt like clubbing, bunking school, experience first hand what’s all that fuss around discotheque. Attended one and guess what? 😦 Accepted an offer from a guy (was cute alright) and agreed to dance. Here I was, or say there I was 😝…dancing with a complete stranger for the first time. Song, Dilemma by Nelly ft. Kelly Rowland reminds me of that moment. 🙈 Eww??? Ouch that hurt LOL. Anyways, getting back to tracing time through song (tracks). Few list below:

Without you by Mariah. Year? IDK. Probably, as early as I started conversing in English. Favorite song as a child. Ecoksins what a innate hopeless romantic old soul I was…i I’m? 🤔 Link in caption.

Mariah Carey – Without You

Ronan, oh boi! This dong, sang for the 1st time in-front of a class of all 7th graders. Validated since, ‘this girl as in me CAN SING 😉 Or so I think. 🙂

When you say nothing at all- Ronan Keating

Here comes Shania. Her songs gives me a country music vibe. All time favorite and two words again ’hopeless romantic’ or an optimist in love.

Shania Twain – From This Moment On

1st crush. Must have been around 11/12? Not sure. This song lingered for long. Who had I been crushing on? My own cousin :/

Mandy Moore – I Wanna Be With You

As a 12 year old, 1st time attempted to try for a creative contest and got lucky on B4U music show. Was announced a winner for my creative artwork I had sent through. My dong dedication was for the song titled ‘Lucky’ by Britney Spears 🙂

Britney Spears – Lucky

Comes Ms. Beyonce. My 1st girl-gang rehearsal for a school performance which never took place 🙃 but was fun rehearsing.

Beyoncé – Crazy In Love

The Corrs, as I was learning to dare make unpopular choices over pop-culture. Although slowly but steadily, was learning to dare have a voice of my own.

The Corrs – Breathless

Leona: First heartbreak song or was it? The lyrics was so beautifully written; I am thinking I might have fooled myself to be heart-broken for the sake to relate. 😆 Such a drama queen.

Leona Lewis – Bleeding Love

Lady Antebellum. Not a fan but this song reminds me, how naive, reckless and stubborn I was—self-sabotaging. Playing mind-games with myself “If I can’t have you I must have you but if you come back I don’t want you.” haha 😂

Lady Antebellum – Need You Now

2011: Got my heart-broken the 2nd-time-round. But know what? With my pattern when good gets going, then comes best 🙂 and it’s only getting better with time. More heatbreajs? Hell ya! Bring it on.

Adele – Someone Like You 

Ms Clarkson. Wearing my heart around my sleeve. Falling back gazillion times but getting back right up—STRONGER.

Kelly Clarkson – Stronger 

2012: Loved the year 2012! My lucky year. Was do much at peace with myself. No love – bullshit or any other life-drama. Just pure music and my musical taste was getting refined. Was at best, enjoying the calm after the storm.

Birdy – Wings 

2013: Same as 2012. Much at peace. Enjoying work life like never before. Soaking in every tune even at work and full of satisfaction and self contentment. 2013, enjoying and getting used to normalcy.

Emeli Sandé – Next To Me

2012- 15 went playful, calm and rather normal for someone who’s life was no less than a roller-coaster. But for how long would I be able to contain this calm? And just then 2016 happened. With it, the year brought lot of confusion, bad choices. However, by mid-year in ages felt the way I did. But for what? Nada! What was that feeling really? I till date haven’t been able to wrap my head around it.😏 Outcome? Unrequited Love! Lingering me with the following tracks for months.

A Great Big World, Christina Aguilera – Say Something
Jessie Ware – Say You Love Me 

2017: When I wanted to cut the noise in my head and shut the world out. Imagine Dragon it was.

Imagine Dragons – Natural

2019: Not love buteverything else. Started dancing with the ghost.

Sasha Sloan – Dancing With Your Ghost

Ms GAGA. Into this song lately, for no particular reason. Although the track dates back to 2018.

Lady Gaga – Always Remember Us This Way (from A Star Is Born)

2020 (Now, this very moment): Following covers lately. Realigning with my inner-peace, as my life unfolds to normalcy. I listen and listen some more, to the said and more to words I unuttered. As I heed, I heal—yet again. Setting free, all things that no longer serves my highest good.

Peter Katz – Halo (Beyonce Cover)

Thanks for visiting. Happy Reminiscing.

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